Who am I?

This is the question i have been trying to answer for the last few years now ( may sound philosophical to some ridiculous to others or even fake) . But then it is true! Believe you me this self search hasnt started because of what many would think a reason for self-search (soul-search). It started because of the "about me" columns on all the leading social networking sites, my inability to write something there and people pestering me, ending up calling me even snobbish ( for heavens sake!!!)
Am i confused?? No i am not! I am pretty clear what i want to do in life ( more than 5 years in engineering and i realise this is not what i shd i have done :P, but then isnt that period of your life algorithmic??), when i want to do what i intend to ( doesnt take into account the inability to find a gf :P) and more so what i want from lyf. However in my case there is another factor that comes into play what life allows me to do. I have been on the wrong side of fate far too often to just say "dream it and u ll get it". But yes still the two words that motivate me are Dream On.
Its because of this that i have been termed pessimistic by some but i would say i am a realist. Life has taught me this the hard way. There have been many such incidents in the past 23 years ever since i came out in this world 'crying'.( If u dont know abt these incidents its because i dont want you to know abt them! ) Its because of this, the part in the parenthesis that people feel i m arrogant but i m not, its just that i prefer being a closed book which only a few will open and read than a blog which any1 can read. Its strange but that is what i am!
Another thing about me is that i only do things which i m completely convinced i want to do. It took me forever to get on to FB ( getting onto orkut was something 'special'), to start blogging ( thanks to pundya and his efforts i finally did it today! and after i told him this on gtalk his reaction was: "चक्क!!" :) ). Somehow things which usually inerest people maynot interest me. I dont watch movies immediately as they are released ( for insti junta mayb on dc++ ) that makes conversations about movies in the mess/otherwise seem latin and greek to me.Its not lack of enthu just the need to get convinced to do something... Yet i m not lost or disconnected...
Well this could go on forever, this " who am i"? thing.. and if u are still reading it thanks so much
This is my 1st blog so plz post ur comments, i like constructive critiscm ( may not agree always :P) and last but not the least i hope atleast some of you who could be reading this would also read the closed book and not just the blog.

Ciao